I just registered yesterday on Daily Diapers. For me it's lonely with nobody to talk about my condition. I was born to be incontinent and why I started wearing diapers when I was a teenager. I'm 64 years old and about 15 years ago my wetting myself became more frequent, I didn't mind at first, and had to start using super absorbent with liners due to accidents. I travel for business and always had to change frequently, but I couldn't wear the super absorbent because I felt people would notice. I'm Bi-Polar and suffer from ADD, before I was diagnosed I self medicated. Many suffer incontinence because of an accident or disease. I use to be able to control my incontinence most of the time until about 15 years ago. I did see a urologist and given medication for OAB and urge. Provided temporary relief, but I couldn't handle the interaction with my Bi-Polar meds. The desire to become incontinent started early in life and then became an obsession which took over my life. My thoughts seriously considered having surgery outside of the country. I no longer have those dark thoughts because I found a urologist who let me try an indwelling catheter. Best day of my life and finally feel free. Using an indwelling catheter is to completely give up control. I'm a very successful business man with a secret I've never told anyone before even my wife. She just thinks I had bouts of incontinence that reached a point I needed an indwelling catheter. She has accepted it because she can see I'm so happy to be able to control my incontinence. My incontinence, I feel, is a mental disease because I couldn't stop thinking about it every second of everyday. I did eventually told my physiatrist and tried changing medications, but the desire remained. In the end he said if your happy that's the most important thing. I know this is a long introduction about myself, but I really needed to just let it out. I've been using an indwelling catheter for 5 years with no UTI's and will continue for the rest of my life. Does anyone out there feel they were meant to be incontinent? I didn't realize until much later in life and couldn't understand why. My mind was just wired that way.